Ray of Sunshine

That’s me. Just a regular old ray of sunshine. …..er not. Today I’m a crab. I’m sick. I have no patience for sickness right now, and I’m a whiner. The it-could-be-a-lot-worse mantra is not working today. I feel like crawling in bed and hiding from the world. Even from hubby. (sorry babe) Usually when I’m sick I want to be cuddled, but this time I’m just crabby about it. I don’t want to be touched. I don’t want to do any parenting. I don’t want to be at work or do any work. I don’t even want to be awake! Away from my warm, cozy bed. If my children didn’t use up all my PTO time, I would SO be at home from work today. I think the reason this round of sickness is so insulting, is that we had 5 complete months of sickness starting in January. Honestly, there were 3 weeks in the whole 5 months in which we weren’t at the clinic for some illness. So the last 2 months of relative good health were such a relief. Apparently I’m still bitter (you think?), this new round of illness is showing me that. Adding to the insult, this is the kind of cold that really hurts in the glands, even into the gums and teeth, I was awake almost all night long, and I’ve been sleep deprived with the exception of the recent kidless weekend, and I’m just plain tired of it all. No more clinics. No more hospitals. No more sickness. No more responsibility. No more thinking. No more adulthood. Can I get away with that please?